Endurance

Endurance
words and music by me, dammit

The water rushes past me where I stand
But I don't want to jump into the river
Because if I get cold and start to shiver
There's not a soul around to lend a hand

And yet I cannot stop myself from diving
Even as I know it's a mistake
The current carries me out to the lake
No matter how sincerely I am writhing

I've been running against the wind
I've been swimming against the tide
I don't know where all this came from
But I know I've got to hide
This is not the kind of subject
That one brings up gracefully
And my legs are getting tired
So I'm carried to the sea

The hill I have to climb is very steep
And I'm not sure I have that kind of steam
At least I can see my goal when I dream
And all I have to do is fall asleep

But I will not allow myself that fate
I fight until I am drained every day
Push 'gainst the breeze and swim back from the bay
And hope that I do not arrive too late

There are paths out of the wind
But it's too late to start again
I have made my choice by now
And I will get through somehow
'Cause I know it in my heart
There's one place I want to see
And if getting there is hard
That's the way it has to be
That's the way it has to be
That's the way it has to be...

I am pulled into the ocean
And I don't know what to do
I am only kept afloat
By gentle light from the pale moon

My goal is growing fainter
The waves toss me like a cork
But just as I want to give up
I am dropped off on the shore